As someone who has always liked airing on the side of caution, I've always been a little adverse to change. In fact, at times it used to absolutely terrify me. I definitely get anxious when faced with the unknown (as I think most of us do) and have a habit of overthinking, in which my brain likes to play out the absolute worst case scenario.
I remember once in my old job, being told I needed to travel to our London office for a client meeting, and as I was the only one going I would be traveling solo. The journey consists of one train from Norwich, and then a short walk through London to the office, that's it. Nothing major, and yet my mind was playing out scenes of me getting the wrong train and ending up in the totally wrong place, or getting lost on the walk and being forever stranded on the streets of London - totally irrational right!?
At the end of last year, I was greeted with the opportunity to go traveling around America and Canada, but with one problem; I would have to quit my job, with nothing in the pipeline to return to. I was confronted with staying well and truly in my comfort zone, or taking the plunge to enable me to do something I have always wanted to do. I took the plunge and left my safe, stable job to go traveling. If you've been following me for a while, you'll know that I decided to step out of my comfort zone and went travelling. Something I'm so very glad I did. Not only was I really hating my job, and stressed all the time, but travelling for nearly two months was an indescribable experience, and has formed memories that I will love and cherish forever.
So here I am some months later, again, in a stable, well paid job, with lovely people, as a multinational insurance broker - something I know and am very capable of and comfortable with. So why oh why, have I tendered my notice this morning?!
Well, I've been offered a position with what is known in the trade as an SME Broker. It's basically a broker who deals with much higher volume, but slightly smaller clients. The book of clients will typically be based in the UK only, which is something a little different to what I'm doing at the moment. To put in perspective, my old book of clients consisted of just eight clients, my new one will be a few hundred.
It's not been an easy decision to get to, but unless you hate your job, deciding to leave never really is. I'm just not finding that I enjoy what I'm doing at the moment. I found this in my old job, which was also multinational broking, but assumed it was because of the high stress, and slightly cut throat environment I was in. For the most part it was, but now that I'm in a calm, friendly, helpful environment where my mind can flow and I can reflect, I've realised it's not the style of work that I want to pursue.
So, here I am, working my notice period, and waiting to embark on a new chapter in my career. A year ago, its something I wouldn't even have considered, moving to something different to what I had grown accustomed to, and yet here I am.
I've been learning to trust myself, and to go with what I feel is best for me, and so far, it's worked out brilliantly. Let's hope this next chapter in my life goes as positively as the previous.